The Night Before

Tomorrow everything changes.. 

Recently I fell of the wagon.. Not only did I fall off but I got ran over. Figuratively speaking of course. Things happened in my life and it really knocked me down and got me depressed. With being depressed, I didn't want to work out and I didn't exactly eat healthy.. Well... ok.. I didn't eat healthy at all. It was almost like I was craving unhealthy food. I turned to food to forget about the stuff that was going on and used it to hide my pain and had myself a good ole' self pity party.. 
About a week ago I said enough was enough and told myself that things needed to change. That was that. It didn't go any further. Then October 1st came and I told my fiance "in 9 days it will be a year until we get married. I'm so excited!" And I was very excited. Then I got thinking of what I told myself when we first got engaged. I told myself that on our wedding day I wanted to be the healthiest, fittest me. By no means am I there. I knew that I needed to change things if I was going to keep my promise to myself. 
The past couple days I delved into research. I was looking for motivation, healthy recipes, anything I could get my hands on that would help me change and get to where I wanted to be. The more I looked, the more motivated I felt. 
I took my activity tracker off my shoe (it was good in thought leaving it on my shoe, but it only worked if I put my shoe on of course!!) and put it on my sock. It is going to be almost attached to me from now on. I use to wear it religiously. I felt naked with out it! 
I looked into things to help with portion control. I decided to buy a portion control tool to help me with portion control. I know that it's not for everyone but I believe that it will really help me. I have always had trouble with portion sizes (obviously so has most of America) and I know that this is what I need to help get my portions under control. 
Today we went out and bought some produce and a few other things to help me prepare for this week. Tomorrow I start with eating healthier and being more active. I feel very prepared for this coming week and I know it is because I took the measures to prepare myself mentally and physically. I have felt a shift that I have never felt before. I have found renewed faith in myself. 

I am ready! I am ready! I AM READY!!