I am my own worse sabotager . (may not be a word but it works.) I had a revelation while I was in the shower. I happen to do my best thinking in the shower. It may be because it is alone time, may be because I take long showers because I like standing in the hot water and end up thinking about anything and everything, especially my problems. Well it hit me today that I sabotage myself. A lot . No matter how prepared I am for the journey, my mind always plays a big part. And once my mind starts thinking that something is wrong or I'm not doing something right, then my body reacts and does exactly what I don't want it to do. Then once started, it is so hard to stop. It is like a domino affect. I have come up with a plan to counteract this self sabotaging. I am going to enlist Ron's help. I plan to let him know what is going on, what I am thinking and ask to, when he starts to see me making poor choices, say something about it and help me get back on track. I am hoping this will help. I am confident that it will because I may not recognize making a poor choice until I have made more than one, where as he can recognize it right away and get me back on track. I may not have mentioned this before, but I have a goal in mind. My wedding is next October, I have about 11 months until it. I want to look great on my day. I want to feel good about myself and feel healthy. Right now my wedding dress is a size 18, and I just barely fit into it. My goal is to be at a size 12 dress for my wedding. I feel this is an attainable goal. To help me attain this goal, 1.) I am asking all my friends on here to lend me support and encouragement and motivation. (I am going to need it.) 2.) I have decided to do fitness challenges each month until then. I am going to come up with them and lay them out in a plan and will blog that plan later. and 3.) as I have I already mentioned, I plan on enlisting Rons help. Yes, all my best thinking and realizations happen in the shower.
